Brother died and looking to change life?

mkay the other day i was thinking and i realized that i have a lot of things that i want to do with my life. most of them i hope to do over the summer, others may take a little longer. point is, i dont know where to start. i mean how do i get my life going? im looking for that BIG PUSH that will just get me going and ill never want to stop until im at the top lol



to give you guys all an idea of what im talking about here are a few things on my list:



write my stories/novel

learn to play the violin

get a summer job

get a gym membership and get the body ive always wanted

renovate my room

enroll in the duke university summer writing camp in new mexico

become vice president of my drama club

get the role of hermia in the fall play (shakespeare midsummer nights dream)

get the role of cinderella in the spring musical (into the woods)

rank in the top 10 of my high school class



if anyone has any advice on ANY of the above mentioned i would greatly appreciate it. also, if you can tell me a way how you yourself have ever gotten inspired to do something, thatd be great as well. just looking for some inspiration and advice (: thanks



to tell you the truth the only reason why i made this list and the only reason why i am trying to push myself to do something with my life besides sit around and smoke cigarettes is bc my brother died about a year ago and it has taken me up unitl now to get over it.



his death has made me realize that hey, the clock is ticking. im not getting any younger and i should really try get up off my fat a/s/s and do something, in his honor and memory. im only 15 so i know i have the time and energy to get these things done. i guess its just knowing where to begin.Brother died and looking to change life?
Just DO IT! Nobody is going to do it for you. You`re lucky. You can start early. Some people waste their entire lives ';waiting'; for that ';push';...